On the Potter's Wheel

As of late, that is where I feel like I'm at... In the center of Potter's Wheel, in His will. 

Some days I feel like a wet, lump of clay on His table, in His studio in His house. Undone. Bare. Exposed. Fragile. Reworked upon. And vulnerable as He prepares me for what He calls me to do next. I'm reminded of Isaiah 64:8 which says, "Yet, O Lord, You are our Father; we are the clay, and You our Potter, and we all are the work of Your hand". Being spun round and round on this wheel called, Life. Feeling dizzy at times from from all the back and forth spinning. And feeling like a mess at times because in all honesty, things can get messy when the Potter is working. But our Potter doesn't mind getting His hands dirty because He's fully invested in His work.

There are instances in my nights in the secret place, when I feel like God's hands are literally laid right upon me and there's this electrifying surge of energy that just flows through me and all I can do is yield, lift up my hands and surrender to His Will. Let Him flow through me. And just work, and do spiritual and physical surgery on me. In this chapter of my life called, 'Transition', I know that it's time to move and grab onto the given set of instructions because the Word of God was spoken and released. And the Word of God can't and won't return to Him void (Isaiah 55:11). 🤍 But signs are to follow. 

If I'm being honest with myself, until a year or two ago, I probably still held out and held back... Took a deep breath in and refused to exhale. Forgot I was even a vessel. I permitted myself to float and not run but I realize that NOW is the optune time and NOW the season for me to be on the Potter's lathe (wheel) and placed right in His hands. So I can learn, unlearn and relearn various things. Like a child I have to learn a new vernacular, a different set of subjects, develop a new skill set and also exercise them regularly too. Be stretched and pulled. I also have to unlearn certain principles, unlearn wrong behaviours and character traits and, implement certain attitudes and repeat certain affirmations to myself so I don't get discouraged but perform certain actions so (internal and external) transformations can also manifest and be maintained. And I can't skip stages, not rush phases while still desiring the immediate final result. I have to partake in the actual process, step by step. 

I have to remain on His lathe. Surrendered. Yielded to His purpose. And there is where He begins to 'roll me out', flatten me - humble me, pat me over and over, and knead me like dough. Make me pliable. Shape me intentionally and intricately. He'd take me on a ride or two (sometimes even more). And He quickens things in some seasons. Other times, He slowly unravels His purpose, molds my mind and brings to light the God-given assignment I am to complete. Yet, He also reminds me that at some points, that I will be put into the furnace and the heat will be deemed unbearable at times, and the pressure heavy. But God is 'cooking' something. Baking something in me because the best is yet to come. I may be tempted to quit at times, throw in the towel and find the nearest exit. But, it's where He wants me. And I'm encouraged by Isaiah 43:2 which says, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze." So He can bring about maturity. And that is where I will be until He says otherwise. I know that it is there where He is working something out. Purging me. Refining me through flames of fire. One flame at a time to strengthen me and make me durable. Causing certain things to die off of me. And so I can be a pure and holy vessel. Thought Zechariah 13:9 ties in nicely here, it reads as follows "And I will bring the third part through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them as gold is tried: they shall call on My name, and I will hear them: I will say, It is My people: and they shall say, The LORD is My God".

At this stage of my walk with the Lord, I desire greater intimacy with Him. To be perfected, so I don't crumble and crack. To be a reflection of Him so others can see Him in me. To strengthen those traits which were overlooked. And when the time is right, 'a layer of paint can be added' to enhance certain patterns of Christ in me. My world can be filled with His colours so I can see with new eyes. And the finishing touches can be added and I can be polished. Thereafter, He can seal me with His signature mark and stamp of approval and deem me a product of the "I am that I am" (Exodus 3:14) - YHWH. 

- Mel